Prayers are so dear to me.

Verbatim (out loud) prayers are very important. I am realizing this a lot lately. For example: when someone innocently asks me to pray (out loud) my desires to God, I start sobbing. "What? Where did that come from?" I ask myself in my thoughts. "Why is it so hard to just tell God your deep longings?" I realized then how afraid I was to ask God anything for myself! It seems really stupid as I'm typing this out, but I think it's important to write this down.

So after my little sobbing party, I started to whisper the deep longings of my heart:

"Lord, make me fearless. Give me your heart for people who are un-loved by everyone. Give me your heart for my enemies, and people who have hurt me. I long for intimacy with you, and I long to have a husband who is wholeheartedly devoted to you!"

This seems like an easy prayer to pray, but it felt like five hours as I was muttering it out of my mouth! Afterwords I felt like a HUGE weight was lifted off of my shoulders. I feel more free! Who would have thought.. If you have never talked to God out loud about your hidden desires and passions, I encourage you to do so!!


Please be praying for me! I have a few things that came up today that I need to be chewing on. Plans for the future, and finances still! I need about 5,000 still for my school all together.

If you want to make a monetary donation, here is the address!

Beach Fellowship c.o Wynter Poe
1817 Virginia beach Blvd.
Virginia Beach, VA 23454

Every little bit helps. Consider yourself a partner in this amazing opportunity to reach out to the public school system in the Philippines! The government there has opened the doors for us to share the gospel openly to all the middle and high schools!! SO awesome. So please please please be praying that our whole team will raise the money we need to make this happen!

Weekending

Today has been un-eventful in the best way. Last night we all went over to Ryan and Sarah's again to watch the Finger of God sequel, Furious Love. I so recommend you watch it! You can check out the movie at: http://furiouslovethemovie.com/ By the time the movie had finished, I was feeling soso sick. I had a fever and I couldn't get off the couch! Bummer, but I was prayed over and I belived for healing. I went home and slept very nicely until 1 in the afternoon. Today I have been catching up on laundry and all that non-exciting stuff that needs to be done, but also reflecting on my week. Pastor John Mark Gal was here speaking this whole week. He is an amazing man of God from the little city of Empress, Alberta. He came and spoke on the the Bride of Christ, and it rocked my socks off for sure. Although every word that came from his mouth was astounding and note-worthy, the one thing that stuck out like a sore thumb was his attentiveness to Holy Spirit. He would be in mid-sentence and stop to listen to what God wanted Him to speak on. Every time he would lay down his rights and soeak out what Holy Spirit was saying, the words pierced my heart like an arrow! That is the kind of attentiveness I want to have.

It's been really fun to exercise my singing more with Amanda Falk and Dayna Van Dam. What women of God!! Misty Endwards once said: "Worship ALWAYS grows boring if I focus only on the music but when I focus on the Man I can play simple melodies for hours and not even notice." What a fun and very true statement! When we let the Spirit give us the songs to sing, worship is not a chore anymore but a time of relaxation, reflecting, and being in awe of the Glory of our Creator. Oh, how I love Him! Worship times set for 45 minutes turn into hours and hours of forgetting where we are because we are so in love.

Word of encouragement for the day: Do not think that just because you are in your hometown, going to work and church and school (and any other mundane activity) that your God doesn't want that same intensity, that same fiery passion, that same Spirit habitation everyday with YOU! You have a father/friend/lover who is PASSIONATELY pursuing you. He wants to be with you where you are, He wants to hear your every though, He wants to converse with you about the "little things" and so much more. So do not give into compromise of everyday life! Live your life FULLY for Him, and He will see to it that you feel all the love and affection He feels for you. Do NOT be afraid of what other people think, even what other Christians think, because jealousy in your relationship with God can me masked by fake concern.


I love you all, doesn't matter who you are, because CHRIST who lives in me loves you all more than you can comprehend! Shalom, peace be with you and in your homes.


Read and meditate on Psalm 11:7 today.




p.s. below is a picture of two classmates and I! Aimee Aitkens on the left, and Sarah Selk on the right.

Gleaning , soaking, seeing Him work.

Angels are jealous of the redemption song the Lord sings over us. What a crazy thought.

As to this salvation, the prophets who prophesied of the grace that would come to you made careful searches and inquiries, ¹¹seeking to know what person or time the Spirit of Christ within them was indicating as He predicted the sufferings of Christ and the glories to follow. ¹²It was revealed to them that they were not serving themselves, but you, in these things which now have been announced to you through those who preached the gospel to you by the Holy Spirit sent from heaven--things into which angels long to look. -1 Peter 1:10-1

I challenge you to meditate on this verse! Ask the Holy Spirit for revelation on what exactly it means.

This weekend has been so incredible. Not because of some hip hop festival (even though that was very fun) and not because we sat around and ate all the time (even though this weekend consisted of much eating). No, it was because we allowed the Holy Spirit to move. It's because we yielded our rights and wants and feelings, and because of that the Lord delighted in us in a new and incredible way. Friday night we all went over to Ryan and Sarah Daw's house to watch the Finger of God documentary and the Lord stuck me with a sense of urgency to get on my knees and pray. We stopped the video and starting crying out for more of the Spirit right where we were. Immediately we began to feel Him at work in our midst! We prayed for everyone individually and interns were freed from mental bondage, slammed in drunkenness, I saw a vision of white light and the eyes of The Lion of Judah, and so much more. By the time we had finally calmed down, there was a tangible wind of the Spirit moving through the room. No windows or doors were open! We were all on the floor in silence soaking for a long while. By the time we were aware of any time at all, it was 3:00 in the morning! It was 4:00 by the time we finished watching the documentary, and we were so filled with joy at what God was doing in our midst, just hanging out in the living room!

Today was amazing as well. We went to church this morning, and then went to Asia Gardens for lunch. While I was in line for Mongolian something totally divine happened. This girl named Cassie came up to me in line! I know this seems totally insignificant but actually it was a divine appointment. I had met this girl randomly at Tim Horton's coffee shop two weeks before, and I saw her again in the middle of nowhere Friday night when we were lost and stopped for directions. I knew God had an agenda in mind for this girl, so I told her it wasn't by accident that we had met randomly so many times! I invited her to this upcoming encounter night where Stacey Campbell (amazing prophetic woman of God) is teaching and Amanda Falk (amazing worship leader with such a heart after God's) was leading worship. If you read this, please be praying that she will be compelled to come and that Jesus will be able to live inside of her!

So we get to the girl's house after lunch to pray for Stacey's arrival, for protection for her, and for increased revelation and hunger in our own lives. We end up soaking for some 4 hours in the presence of God, not moving or saying a word. It went by so fast :) Then we started praying and one of the staff dudes with us got a call about some Messianic Jews interested in a bible study that we have of Sunday nights. We were all so hungry to learn about Israel and the history and prophesy about God's chosen people! So they ended up giving us so much clarity of God's Word and about certain things we were wrestling with in our minds. My brain hurt from all the knowledge, but I was so hungry to know the things of God that questions just kept coming back up! Before we even thought about it, it was 11 o'clock. We got to pray for this couple and their niece, and the man told us how much he had been longing for a group of people to teach and disciple in the ways of the Bible. How awesome!!

This is so how God works. EVERYTHING for the benefit of those who love Him. There is no limit of creativity or power that God will bless us with simply if we give Him room to do what He wants! His plan is the best.

Prayer requests! I need about 6,000 more dollars for the rest of my lecture phase here, as well as for our upcoming outreach to the Philippines. Also, pray for a release in faith and zeal to take what I am learning to the streets of Medicine Hat! I am so longing to do evangelism in the city, and I know God put this yearning in me.

Be blessed, be filled with the Spirit and the knowledge of Jesus, and don't forget to meditate on 1 Peter 1:10-12 today.

Another lesson in faith.

God wants us to be obedient! In fact, He requires it. To have a heart after 100 percent obedience, we need to stretch our faith muscle and get into shape! God is my personal trainer in faith this week for sure. I'm totally trusting God with my heart, soul, and mind in the area of finances! He WILL be faithful to His promises when I am faithful in my attitude and heart posture with Him!!

I love Jesus more and more every day. Hah! He is so un-boring.

Read Hebrews 11.

Be blessed :)