I think it's interesting how emotions work. They are different for everyone. Not the specific emotions exactly, but really how the emotions are brought on by different acts, smells, or sounds for every person. I sometimes hate the fact that I'm very emotionally driven. Such little things can get me so pissed off. And then I think about it later and I feel so crazy. hah! I just don't know if I would trade being emotional for being non emotional. I think it would get boring at times. So would I rather look obnoxious, so be boring? I would probably choose option A...
In life there are so many choices too...easy ones like what to wear and eat, and hard ones like who you will marry, and what you will do vocationally. Sometimes when it comes to doing what God wants me to do, it is easier for me to make big decisions, and harder to make small ones. When God says, "Don't date, there will be consequences in the end if you do.." then I should probably listen to Him, I think He might know what He's talking about. But when the decision is in my face I find myself getting trapped in gray areas, in the "what ifs" and the "well maybe if i do this" questions. But why do I do that to myself? Every freaking time I look back, and realize that I made a mistake and I should have listened. So don't you think by now I would know better? It's like in my head and in my heart, I know that God's plan for my life is the best, and it will be the most glorifying to Him, but somewhere along where my brain tells my body what to do I get confused and end up failing. It's a good thing that the Lord is full of abounding grace. I know I wouldn't be able to do what He does. I just wish that my actions in the little things could reflect more of how I feel in my head and in my heart.
